KeBenaRan

kebenaran adalah sesuati perkara yg agak subjektif...
finally...
ak ketemu dgn jwpn yg ak cri slama ni...
rupa- rupanya...kau sdh ada insan laen...
smua janji yg kau berikan padaku...
hanya tinggal janji....
ptt la kau memutuskn utk membuang sbrg link yg berkaitan dr page ak...
rupa-rupany...kau x nk ak tahu yg kau kini bhgia bersama si dia....

ak akui...
perasaan ak msh lg pdmu...
ak x pernah melupakanmu...
cuma...rsa sakit ak msh belom terubat...
terima kasih kerana kau sndr yg mendelete sume link berkaitan...
sekurang-kurangnya...ak x terlalu kecewa pabila melihatnya sndr...
wlpn sume rahsia kau terbongkar akibat kealpaan kau...

ak xkn berhenti mencari jwpn slgi ak belom temuinya....
skrg ak telah temui apa yg ak cri...
insyaallah...ak xkn tertanya lg...
skrg ak pasti akan jwpn yg kau tidak akan menunggu ku..
biarla ak sndr mngubati luka yg kau tgglkn ini...
pedihny msh terasa wlpn sdh sthn perpisahan ini terjd....
ak hrpkn...si dia mmpu memahami dan menyayangi kau...
semoga kau berbahagia bersama insan yg kau syg...
ak sdh tidak berhak utk menyeru namamu lg dikala hati ini dibaluti rindu untukmu...

biarla segala kenangan dlu menjd sejarah...
ak merelakan kau pergi....
tp ak hrpkn...kau jgn pernah lg muncul dlm mimpi- mimpi mlmku...

HaTi YanG Kau SakitI

ape perasaan ble ttbe de org 2 janji & x tunaikn janji???
sedih...
geram...
rsa mcm nk penampar pon der...
dlu bukan maen lg...berjanji...
sbb 2 la ak x suke org yg berjanji ni...
janji tggl janji...
ak msh lg simpan msg janji 2 sume...

pe kes ttbe nk delete sume fb, fs, tagged???
takot terkantoi la 2...
laen kali...kalu rse x mampu nk tunaikn janji 2...
x yah la berjanji yer...
wat sakit ati jer...
apasal ym pon x delete skali???
lg bagus....

mayb slh ak gak sbb kuarkn status yg menyakitkan
tp...2 bkn utk kau..
2 tuk org laen..
ak x pernah terniat nk menyakitkan hati kau...
ak pon thu sbnrnya kte dh x leh jd kwn...
tp kau pk x time ko dgr sume cerita nonsense tu???
ati ak sgt la sakit....
kau lbh percyakn org laen dr ak...
smpai skrg...ak msh x phm knapa kau msti percyakan die dr ak...
bknny kau x penah kwn dgn ak dlu...
kau sndr pon tau time kte berkwn 2 ak dh kapel dgn org laen...
kau tgk camner ak layan kau...
sbb ak tau ak dh kapel dgn org laen...
ak treat kau sbg kwn...no more...
same thing goes to kau....
spnjg kte kapel...ak keep going berkwn dgn mmbr2 laki ak yg laen..,
situasi yg sme time kte blom kapel lg....
then...knape ssh nk percyakan ak lg...
ak bg kau kebebasan utk berkwn dgn p'puan laen...
sbb ak tau kau ada khdpn kau sndr...
ak percyakn kau...
wlpn ak tau ada org yg try nk pikat kau...tp ak still blh bersbr...
kapel x bermksd kene kawal segala2nya...
kne ikot pe yg org laen wat...
bg ak...kapel is about hati...
as long as u're in de journey...
ak pasti hati xkn mudah berubah...
hati adalah subjektif....
tp ak smkn x phm akan kau...
lg ak x phm dgn org yg menyampaikan crite 2...
ko pehal nk bercerite cam 2???
pe yg ko jeles sgt...
ape yg ak lbh dr ko???
x pe la...dh i2 yg ko wat kt ak...ak bknny style yg suker berdendam..
ak xkn wat ape yg ko wat kt ak dlu...
i'll let it go by time...
but...ak akn igt smpai ble2...

ni lg 1 org yg ak menghdpi stress...
org yg x nk fhm2 akan apa yg ak x mau...
dh ak ckp xnk...dok paksa ak spy trime 2 pe kes???
"life is wonderful if others feel de same as u're..i still keep hoping dat u will feel the same as i do..."
now wat???
de 2 mksd kt sni...
1) nk suh ak trime cinta die
2) nk suh ak rse camner perasaan ble cinta x disambut..
tell me...which one???

tlg la...penat tau asyik dok ckp bende yg sme...
ak da ckp bnda ni 7 years back...
between us just normal frenz...
i dont have dat kind of feeling for u...
why its hard to make u understand???
i have to finish up my project...
and...u come back...why now???
tlg la anggap ak as your frenz...
bka ati 2 utk org laen...
doa without usaha is useless tau x???
ak bkn p'puan yg mudah nk touching2 dgn ayat2 cam2...
plz la...let me breath easy...

FYP progress

wow....kemeletz g2....ttbe lak kak eli nk slide progress...melompat la ak dri katil...naseb baek x tercium katil atas...mkmlm la katil double decker....kalu x msti dh lekat sebiji bola kt dahi ak...ari 2 nyer bola bru jer ilang(moral of the story: jgn tdor katil double decker bhgn bwh...huhuhu).........igtkn nk bercinta lame lg dgn katil 2...ttp hajat x kesampaian... x pe la...bergegas ak g fak engine....cri sab dgn pak ya....smbl 2 join group g interview utk fyp no 2 iaitu jurutera & masyarakat...berlari2 ak ari ni...jumpe sab...bncg2 psl jenis mesin....pas2 lari blk kolej....wat slide utk kak eli....gne pwr point jer....ak sempat siapkn sketch design dlm mse bbrape minit jer...agak laju gak la ak lukis...siap dgn dimension lg ak letak...ptg ni de discussion dgn pak ya laks...semoga dipermudahkn urusan.....amin

SeMalaM, harI ini, Esok

semalam
jam menunjukkn hmpir kul 6 ptg...ttbe ak rsa something weird...kerusi yg ak duduk bergoyang...pas2 ak trus tgk air dlm bekas minuman comel ak ni...sme gak bergoyang...kuat gak sbb mmg terasa...kul 7 trus bka MP3 comel ak nih...dgr la berita...rupa2nya de gempa bumi kt sumatera indonesia berukuran 7.7 skala rektor...kuat 2....tp lg kuat time tsunami...terasa dunia da nk kiamat...tanah bergelora...ak n family ak sume lari kuar dr umah....ddk kt luar...tp smlm ak dok jer dlm bilik...gegaran 2 mle2 uat..pas2 pelan...and then kuat blk...tp klau ikot dr keselamatan...spttnya smua penghuni lari kuar trun ke kawasan lapang sbb struktur bangunan yg dibina sblm tsunami x mengambil kire load gempa...so...tanah x mampu nk pegang bangunan...tp ak mls nk trun...aish....x bgs tol...

hari ni
ak rsa x thu la...mood pon kurang...study cket pas2 tdor...ak study control system...bnyk giler kne igt....argh...tekanan kt ak....

esok
sok ak de test control system...study x hbs2 lg...mne xnya...bke jer nota pas2 pkran ntah melayang ke mne ntah...mlm ni ak kne study gak smpai hbs & faham!!!

HuJunG MingGu~

sabtu:
g masjed jamek shopping rya...actually kawan ak yg membeli bju rya....ak beli tudung & keronsang utk mak ak...at last ak gak yg x dpt keronsang...x thu nk pilih...bnyk sgt...konon2 nk buka pose kt SOGo...tp hampes sbb ttbe laks dorang wat guest invitation...rmai lak 2...mls nk beratur trus ke KL central...kn senang....pas buke bru blk...

ahad:
jln2 lg...dlm mimpi kot...x sure la...

You came to me- Samy Yusuf

You came to me in that hour of need
When I was so lost, so lonely
You came to me, took my breath away
Show me the right way, the way to lead

You filled my heart…with love
Show me the light… above
Now all I want is to be.. with you
You are my one…true love
Taught me to never judge
Now all I want…is to be with you

Allahummasolia’la saidina mustoffa
‘Ala habibika nabiika mustoffa
Allahummasolia’la saidina mustoffa
Mustoffa…
‘Ala habibika nabiika mustoffa

You came to me, in the time of despair
I call onto you, you were there
Without you, what would my life be
Not know the unseen, the worlds between

For you I’d sacrifice, for you I gave my life
Any…thing…just to be with you
I feel so lost… thats time
Of all, the hurt…and lies
Now all I want… is to be with you

Allahummasolia’la saidina mustoffa
‘Ala habibika nabiika mustoffa
Allahummasolia’la saidina mustoffa
‘Ala habibika nabiika mustoffa
Mustoffa…
‘Ala habibika nabiika mustoffa

Show me right from wrong
Told me to be strong
Need you more than ever…ya Rasulallah
You came to me in that hour of need
Need you more than ever…ya Rasulallah

You filled my heart…with love
Show me the light… above
Now all I want… is to be with you

You are my one…true love
Taught me to never judge
Now all I want…is to be with you

Allahummasolia’la saidina mustoffa
Mustoffa…
‘Ala habibika nabiika mustoffa
Allahummasolia’la saidina mustoffa
‘Ala habibika nabiika mustoffa
Mustoffa…

Mula TeRasa Tekanan

wa...dh mula terasa tension nk siapkn final year projek.....ari ni pas kul 10 pg trus msk meeting dgn supervisor...join group bioretting...actually cuak gak sbb proposal x antar lg tp da siap....

dlm meeting 2..bru la tahu yg bnda yg kami wat ni adalah research level antarabangsa...pergh...dgn hrpan msg2 projek akan dijadikan rujukan & jika mesin ciptaan ak & yg kwn ak nyer btol2 jadi...mesin 2 akan digunakan utk universe...tp bg ak..yg pentng siapkan fyp....msti grad taun dpn...

sbnrnya ak shj diperuntukan USD20000....giler la...ak ni degree pon x dpt lg...da suh wat mesin yg x wujud 2 dgn peruntukan sbnyk 2....kwn ak lak kne design & wat kolam utk retting process...die nyer peruntukan lg la bnyk dr ak....nk rendam bast kenaf 2 sbnyk 2.5 tan...huahuahuahua...x thu nk ckp pe lg....msg2 dh tension....

tp lg tension ak la...nk kne wat mesin yg x penah org wat...rujukan pon x de...semoga ak berjaya jadikan mesin 2 1 reality....hope sgt2 wlpn teramat tension...rsa mcm nk blk umah je lg ni....sabar2..